During the years that I was a keen student of
tantra, I enjoyed groups, workshops, and the writings of teachers.
Although my gratitude to these teachers is huge, they had definite
limitations.
Sure,
some of them had a lover or two, and quite possibly some good
teaching and learning happened in that context, but few students
could hope to work directly with the best teachers of the time.
Obviously, real tantra is taught person
to person, intimately, and when appropriate, sexually. Tantra
at that level of authenticity was simply not available to most
seekers.
One reason for this history of partial tantra
was surely the lack of students that were ready for this level
of work. Most of us require a long, thorough and deep exploration
of Neo-Tantra techniques and understanding before we can usefully
approach tantra as such.
Another was the personal level of awareness and
capacity of the teachers. Some had experienced an immersion
in a foreign culture and suffered much confusion as to what
practices were actually useful to Westerners. Others did great
work with challenging the cultural mindset around sexuality
and encouraged more natural, healthy alternatives. Great work,
but not actually tantra as such.
The bottom line: There were no available teachers,
complete with or sufficiently advanced on their own path, able
and willing to help others with the necessarily intimate and
sexual work.
I and my partner through those years had no option
but to work on our tantra together. As we became adept, we
improved as teachers to each other and advanced our understanding
and practice significantly. We managed this while working through
our own relationship dramas, developing our own sexual awareness
, running a business and raising two children. A gorgeous journey
indeed, but hardly efficient as a learning method.
My path was complete in 2002. What this means,
among other things, is that my personal issues around sexuality
were finished, as was my sexual hunger/craving. Before that,
I had no idea of being or becoming a tantra teacher.
Since then, my personal spiritual mission has
been to encourage a few women with the intelligence, emotional
capacity and sexual power to their teaching as Dakinis – those
who teach the mysteries and secrets of tantra directly.
These few women have become teachers
who choose an approach to their work that requires a degree
of willingness and capability significantly beyond that of
any of the tantrikas I encountered on my path, or even heard
rumours of.
I am constantly in awe at their bravery, intent
and the difference they make in the lives of their students.
I commend them to you as authentic and powerful teachers, the
likes of which you will not currently find anywhere else on
this planet.
They
are the teachers that are needed now. I am their harbinger.
Rahasya
2010